thy blog.♥

2010-12-01T05:58:00.000-08:00

agenda for today:
- woke up at 5
- messaged baby, planned outings for tomorrow.
-went to buy my fag.
-cooked maggie with grandma and ate dinner.

i have an interview tomorrow. woohoo. !
i have a good feeling bout it. :)
baby, zoe and i are gonna watch rapunzel tomorrow, cant wait. !

grandma bought masks for me.
guess im gonna have my mask and head to bed soon. !
ciaos. !

2010-11-30T09:13:00.000-08:00

it's been some time since holiday started and I've been out everyday thus the sudden cease in updates.
but I'll be blogging more often, seems kinda weird to be away from it.
holidays are finally here but this year it's exceptionally not ripeful.
have not been working but interviews are coming up so I guess I'll get one soon. heh.
okay, for the biggest news in the new month of December.......
I'll be going on a trip with my little precious. !
and his mum, my mum and leon's family of course.
but hey, I'm so thrilled. ! xoxo
holiday with baby. ! woohoo. ! <3

I'm dead tired cause I've been into gossip girl recently and staying all night watching it.
results to tiny eyes and dark eye circles. (Y)
love it.. not.

okay so I'm gonna get my beauty sleep and I'm really happy nowadays . ! :)
keep smiling. ! Cheers. !

2010-11-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

hiding in the toilet;
grandma asked if I was crying yet I could only say no.
how can I tell her, who would even understand.

you do it again and again.
apologise time and time again but will you understand. ?
my heartache.
how I take the effort to avoid guys for your sake.
no.

I feel like crying, so bad.
I don't wanna get angry at you yet you're being so insensitive,
even on the edge of getting angry.

the heart is aching so so badly.
will you just understand..
please..

2010-10-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

after 4 days, im finally with baby. xoxo
glad everything's fine now. :D
playing lan at cyrus now.
have no idea why i cant access my stupid audi acc.
oh wells. :)

2010-10-25T09:52:00.001-07:00

just recovered from fever.
arrgh coughing like mad..
English paper was kinda easy however I don't think I'll score for English compo.
wasn't elaborated enough. :(
ohhwells, it's over anyway.
hope the rest of the paper would be a breeze. !

ps. I don't use blot paper dude. --

2010-10-22T08:54:00.001-07:00

woke up and went to baby's house.
and it was already 4 plus, lazy pig. !
hahah anyway slacked at his place for awhile before meeting jm.

that idiot kept disturbing me the entire day. ! --
met jas afterwards.
hahah and now home sweet home. :)

ps. iloveyoubaby. xoxo

2010-10-21T11:42:00.001-07:00

baby's mum bought me this purple adidas watch. xoxo.
love her ttm. although very ps. !
hahah.

P.S: the cigarettes look so extra.

2010-10-21T11:13:00.000-07:00

childish and ignorant people.
what for slap your own face by giving unnecessay comments.
i know you're jealous but please contain it within yourself.
im not the least interested. :)

2010-10-18T05:24:00.001-07:00

my baby was so sweeet for 4 days.
i said i would let go bout the korean girl issue, im xorry for bringing it up to upset you.
im trying very hard to let it go.

i wanted to run to your arms today,
but you didnt want to meet me.
sigh im sorry..

i dont know what to say anymore.

2010-10-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

said that you would stay out and not go home only if I'm around.
but what now.

what can i say.
being upset and sitting all alone,
yet you can continue laughing with your friends.

what can I do..
seriously..
what am I suppose to do.

asking your friends to go to your class bbq,
but not me..

what am I suppose to do.
what can I do.
to force myself to endure all these when I don't feel secure anymore.

2010-10-01T07:56:00.001-07:00

I wish so much to be in your embrace.
to feel your warmth and love all over again.

2010-09-21T03:41:00.001-07:00

I won't cry.
I will never cry anymore.
there's nothing left to say.
all the plans we made, just vanished into thin air.
all the busrides we took, became a part of history.

but why can't the love disappear too .
why can't I fucking erase all the pain. !

2010-09-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

smooth sailing. ?
0%

tolerance. ?
100%.

our love. ?
irreplacable.

2010-09-18T22:07:00.000-07:00

girlgirl my hamster passed away.
she was so adorable and lovable.

baby and i were so devastated over her loss.
she loved us alot,
often licking us to tell us howw important we were to her.

however as boyboy(her mate) grew bigger each day,
she wasnt.
instead her health deteriorated.
she was petite in size.

the day before she was put to sleep,
my heart ached to see her endeavour,
to just stand, sit or even lay down.
it became her flounder.
it daunted to me that i would lose her any moment...

i was relieved to see her breathing( technically she was panting) the next day.
as i had classes,
i asked my dad to bring her to the vet.
and i regretted doing so,
i lost the last chance of seeing her.

vet tole my dad that she was contaminated,
so he had to take her away based on government law.
WTF, seriously.
and yes,
i didnt get to see her anymore...

girlgirl is the one on your right. left is boyboy.
we'll miss you. <3

2010-09-18T21:38:00.000-07:00

everything is filled with serenity now.
just hope that a storm would not emerge.
it's the second time I dreamt,
wonder what does it mean..

anyway on the happier end,
wad totally estactic when I finally saw the price of the phone I wanted.
it was only 338. !
was kinda moody cause I thought it's price would be somewhat like e72 or higher.
however it turned out to be less.
was totally elated and excited. !

ps: saving up. ! dieting. ! study. !

2010-09-18T00:11:00.001-07:00

so different.

2010-09-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

at the lan opposite pomo now.
eyes feels extreme sore due to all the crying just now.
however ,
no matter how hard i cried..
he didnt give a damn..

sigh..
what must i do to make him care for me.
at least a little.
even now,
i had to apologise.

daryl was nice enough to frequently ask how i was.
also persuaded him to apologise.
but its like he doesnt wanna say anymore..

please.
just care just a little,
i'll also be happy..

2010-09-16T07:37:00.001-07:00

our only two days..
yet one of it you chose to go out with them..
I can't describe the pain..
it's worse than anything I've felt...

2010-09-16T07:28:00.001-07:00

silly me crying again..

2010-09-14T07:23:00.001-07:00

ohh gosh..
I wanna cry..
sigh..
you'll always think I'm bad..
sigh..

2010-09-14T03:45:00.001-07:00

I love you.
ultimately I'll respect your choice.. :)

everytime I see your conversation with her,
it pains me..
you were...
so happy..
throughout this 6 months,
you've never spoken to me in this manner before.
as your girlfriend..
I actually envy her alot.

it's heartening for you to see me cry.
promise not to talk to girls anymore.
but now, it's a whole lot of conversation.
hahah.
what can I say. I trust you,
so I have to endure.

2010-09-13T22:43:00.000-07:00

day 4 without you.
I agreed to all the conditions you stated so tht we could be together again.
even though it's no ones fault, but I'm sarcrificing everything for you.

saw your fb.
happily talking to girls.
you told me that you know what you're doing.
but I'm hurt. ! don't you even bother.
I'm crying now in school cause of you yet you can just say it's caused I lied to you.

why are you doing this to me..
why..
I've already listened to you.
everything..
why..

you like being single, you like talking to girls.
what bout me. ?
I've listened to you and never done anything to betray you.
WHY. !!!!!!!!!

2010-09-13T04:56:00.000-07:00

day 3 without you..
it's getting worse.
life in school is piling up with so many problems..
I just want you by my side,
but you chose not to trust me anymore.
is your love this deep . ?

pains me alot..
i just hope you'll understand.
I've never lied to you.
I don't even talk to guys, I tell you everything.
but why..
you talk to girls all these, I'm perfectly fine with it.
why..
I don't even dare to go into your fb profile anymore.
just want you here..
I loved you. just that simple..

ps: I miss you..

2010-09-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

day 2 without you.
sucks seriously. you said you wanted more time, till friday.
saw your fb, talked to dawn. ?
lol what bout jiawen now.
I don't know anymore.
sucks havin to care all the time when you don't even give a damn.

yesterday when I was upset. ?
you were out with that dog having a whale of a time.
did you even care. ?
no.

I have to put on a masquerade so that to make myself look happier.
but you're already so happy..
pain is all I feel now..
single. ?
is that what you really want.

ps: numbnumb. ^^

2010-09-10T11:46:00.000-07:00

this has been going on and off for sometime and here I am again blogging bout the fact that we broke up AGAIN.
yes we both are tired, but I try so hard. what I want Is so simple.
for you to just hug me and tell me everything's gonna be alright.
but,
you won't even walk that few steps to assure me.
all you do is tell me that we are different .
obviously I know that,
everyones different that's why there's such thing call to accept people for who they are.
and that's exactly what I'll do if you could just take the damn initaitive.

now both of us are hurt.
I don't know how much you can take.
but I gotta say, I'm losing it.
after today, we'll go our seperate ways.
as much as I want you, I don't have much of a choice.

engulfed in so much agony.
first her, now you.
you guys taught how to not love anymore.
being alone and coldhearted is the best.

wonder how long will it take before the pain subsides..
I'll wait for you downstairs later.
to reminiscence our love for this 6 months then I'll give up entirely.
just let me be..
it'll be the best for both of us.

ps: painpain . lol and I'm missing you so badly now.

2010-09-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

i love you, i want to be with you.
but it doesnt seem that way for you.
having me ornot , doesnt really concern you.
sigh..
i dont know..

how many times must i come around for your to finally understand my pain.
im always taking the initiative,
whats wrong with us..
seriously

2010-09-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

never felt like this before,
so little so insignificant..

you'll never run to me cause you only want me to run to you.
im scared of you betraying me.
you dont even bother about me when im sad, ignoring me is all that you do.

nevr behaved like this before,
i had the upper hand with all my ex.
but now, you're not even treating me right.
all you do is say you love me.
but ultimately,
actions are still more important than words..

i can really trust you right...
especially bout her......

2010-09-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

was in the bath for an exceptionally long time.
under the temperature of 40 degrees celsius of running water,
i hope it would ease my pain, wash away all my misery, drain my tears with the water..
but to no avail.

you chose to give us up cause you let me down.
you thought that we'll be happier,
but have you ever thought bout me..
im nowhere near happy without you.

you let me down just like her.
cause of a girl..
but i was okay with it, so why werent you..
an old wound being sliced open again,
the pain is 100x worse than a normal cut you gave me.
i wish the cut that you gave would never heal,
it makes me feel that you're still here.
but everyone knows, that will never happen..

for once i have to say that im not okay..
i never knew how much i loved and needed you, till today.
despite your irascible temper and attitude.
despite not caring and treating friends more importantly,
i still accepted , cause thats you..
but still..
you chose to give up..

i will remember today, the bus ride , the sitting on the bench and chatting..
i'll never forget..
goodbye and i love you...

2010-09-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

leaves falter,
wind howling..
the cold breeze brushed across my face.
but i dont feel anything anymore.

the pain inflicted on my heart was so tormenting, guess it just made it numb.
im in pain,
in serious agony.

baby you can talk to anyone you want,
i shouldnt manipulate you anymore.
this is your life and i shouldnt.

when she used sarcasm on me,
i kept quiet cause i couldnt be bothered with such bitches anymore.
yet you just kept quiet.
telling me you'll scold her. ?
it only came when i said something.
but where's your heart, your initiative. ?
what can i do..
nothing.
she and you can just message then.
its your choice
i should just let it go..

putting on a masquerade every single day to avoid conflicts,
cause i love you....

ps: i'll be alright.

2010-09-04T11:21:00.001-07:00

you didnt reply,
thought you were asleep.
but when you finally replied and tell me you have nothing to say,
then nevermind.
dont reply anymore.

ps: love the rain.

2010-09-01T11:48:00.001-07:00

officially detest the words: best friend . I don't wanna be best friends with you. that's not what I want.. but you don't wanna return anymore.. what can I even do. ps: coughing badly.

2010-09-01T07:49:00.000-07:00

im single again...
lol broken again.

i once decided that when i lose you, i wont find another.
guess thats just what im gonna do.

saw your fb, lol.
its good youre going back to him,
at least he cares.. more than me.

to you, im just a bitch that lies.
that acts.
you'll never think i care..

maybe thats just what i am,
im just a loser that cant excel in anything..

but i really loved you,
i'll always be there if you ever need me.
im sorry.

lol, so so so in pain..
i dont know anymore..

ps: we'll miss you.

2010-08-29T12:42:00.001-07:00

now I wanna cry. no more, enough is enough. I won't yearn anything from you anymore.

2010-08-29T12:25:00.000-07:00

promised me that you'll bring me there, but you never did. don't wanna carry hopes with ne anymore . thought I could finally go your place after exam and spend the day there. but you just totally changed the plans. questioning me bout why am I so keen bout going. it's just me I guess.. ps: still mugging for chem. !

2010-08-28T23:45:00.001-07:00

im not gonna talk to any guys anymore.
if that could prevent you from stirring up a quarrel with me.
imtired... i really am..

2010-08-21T11:20:00.001-07:00

maybe not.
you never liked me around anyway.

ps: just slammed my phone.

2010-08-21T10:15:00.001-07:00

a day filled with laughter,
hope everything remains the way it is.

baby injured his hand.
sayang kay.

ps: E72. !

2010-08-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

spoken words don't matter anymore.
actions are all that counts.

your actions, by choosing to be with you,
i could only condone and accept cause i love you.
even though im breaking with insecurity and the lack of care.
im independent, i keep telling myself im alright,
i can make it through this.

therefore, i can only spend each sleepless night drying up my tears.
i don't yearn for your understanding anymore cause i know this is the only extend you could reach.
i just hope that you don't get angry or frustrated with me anymore,
especially when the situation is also outta my control.

ps: i miss girlgirl.

2010-08-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

is this fate. ?
cause if it is, i detest it.
i wanted to hold on to someone i love
but he chose to walk away.

what can i do.
things doesnt always turn out the way we want them to.
i can only surrender myself to fate.
what bout love.. ?
guess it's was never meant for me.

i dont know what to believe in,
maybe myself.
but im even uncertain of my life.
this life that seemed it never once belonged to me.

2010-08-09T11:01:00.001-07:00

crying crying and crying again.
you told her everything , what bout me. ?
i betrayed you. ?
by telling my mum something we promised to keep a secret. ?
im sorry.

2010-08-09T10:33:00.000-07:00

a relationship goes this way:
he loves her, she loves him.
you guys are happy.
then he breaks her heart, she breaks his.
happy again.
she breaks his, he breaks hers.

and guess what,
the person getting blamed is always you.

this is my relationship, what bout yours. ?

2010-08-09T08:45:00.000-07:00

once watched this show, the actor told the actress:
for every tear you shed, i would sacrifice the same amount of my own blood.
this proved his love for her..
when i cry, you walk away ignoring me..
then...
what does this actually prove..?

you dont even have the slightest trust in me.
by not answering my call.
i trust her and that this is just nothing,
why cant you have the same faith in me.. ?

and you dont wanna meet me anymore..

2010-08-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

looking at our necklace;
taking puffs;
sitting by the window,
i started to think bout what happened 5 months ago..

you came to my house warming wearing your formal.
i felt lost cause i lost her yet you were there for me ever since.
you were so nice and sweet.
it was kinda cute when you told me that you didnt know if you liked me and had to ask leon. lol
that night, you asked for stead and i accepted.
hoping you'll change and not be a flirt anymore.
although i still had her in my heart, you didnt mind.
i thought maybe i should give it a shot.
before you left, you kissed me on my forehead.
a surge of warmth rushed through me, i didnt feel so alone anymore.
i felt loved.

although we had many quarrels, but it made us bond.
my love for you grew, i believed i could forget her.
i had my doubts as you were a flirt,
but you proved to be trustworthy.

i liked it so much when you hug me from the back and told me you love me.
when we use to make jokes outta nothing and laughed as though there was no tomorrow.
when i cried, you hugged me and assured me.
when you were acting like a kid, being so petty i thought you were just nothing but a pain in the arse.
i started to care bout you, bout how you were feeling.

remembered the time when you surprised me with our ring,
i was overwhelmed with joy.
loved the busrides home with you,
at least we get to spend that 20 mins together.
i dont express my feelings openly, i like to keep quiet when im upset.
but you didnt like it, you didnt want me to endure it all by myself.
you would do anything to keep me safe.
and you never used violence on me.
when you gave me bearbear, i thought that i couldnt be any happier.
bearbear accompanied me to sleep every night,
whenever i cry or i smile, it'll be there with me.
as though you were just by my side.
when i was cold, you wanted to take off your shirt just to keep me warm,
i swear i could have dug a hole to hide my face in. hahah
whenever i get angry, you would try to pacify me.
although sometimes i wasnt really angry, i just wanted you to act cute with me. lol

but now..
whenever i cried, you get angry and walk away..
people that you use to protect me from,
now you're asking me to respect them and apologise.
you're grounded so we cant take bus rides home anymore but your mum allows you out with him.
i feel so upset but what can i do..
you treated me with hostality and replied me cold messages.
you dont bother bout how i feel anymore.
when im sick, its all the same..

when i've forgotten bout her, you changed for the worst..
and now, my hearts' breaking again.
you started getting close to girls and wants freedom now at times you dont need me.
whenever you need me, you say that im neglecting you.
i can mix with your friends, but you can never mix with mine,
but its okay..
i like staying home, but you prefered going out.
so i accommodated to what you want..
now, you use your gangster tone on me and hurl vulgarities at me.
you know i dont like it when you hide things from me,
but you constantly do so..
you know i had a bad experience bout people hiding stuffs from me but you're still doing it.
i dont like it when you ignore or hang up my phone,
although i do it sometimes,
i just want you show me that you care.. cause i cant feel it anymore.
and when i tell you how i feel, you'll be totally oblivious about it.

i missed the times when you were patient and forgiving.
missed the times when you treated me like your one and only.
missed the times that you would make me happy when im down.
missed the times when you wouldnt forsake me or scold me cause of your friends.

all i ask is for you to understand me..
do you even still love me anymore.
or am i so insignificant now..
i dont know..
i miss you..
i miss the old nicholas that used to be such a darling..
but i dont know where he went..
and i cant find him anymore...

2010-08-05T04:41:00.001-07:00

please put yourself in my shoes.
you're grounded, cant send me home.
but your mum allow you to go out with him.

he should be punished for his misdeeds.
hypocritical bastard.

you scold me cause of him..
he's all that important to you right..
its just him..

2010-08-05T04:24:00.001-07:00

wanna cry..
hurts.. just wanna cry like there's no tomorrow.

2010-08-05T03:10:00.001-07:00

my mouth is sealed.
even if my heart is hurting, i cant say anymore.. (:

2010-08-04T05:41:00.001-07:00

can someone please hug me and assure me im not gonna hurt anymore..
can someone just make me forget all of these..

that i once loved and trusted you so much..

2010-08-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

you cant visit me when im sick, but you can enjoy yourself and go out.
say youre grounded but you meet him at night.

why does my heart hurt so much..
i dont know.

and youre not even keen to come back anymore..

2010-08-04T04:29:00.001-07:00

miss 4 days ago..
when we use to quarrel, smile and cry.

2010-08-04T02:48:00.001-07:00

you're happier.. (:

2010-08-04T02:47:00.001-07:00

如果哭可以忘了你，我会大声地哭...

我会忘掉曾经对你的思念和依恋...

我为你流下的眼泪已足够，你从来不懂我的眼泪却伤我那么离谱....

我却还哭，越哭越認真的，为谁？

2010-08-04T01:16:00.001-07:00

went home with her. ?
woahh thats nice eh.
perfect weather with perfect girl.
good for you. !

2010-08-04T01:09:00.000-07:00

i activated my fb.
but once i log into your profile, i saw pictures that youre werent at home.
you were out with him when you told me you cant be out with me.

before i turn on the com, i had so much to blog about.
but now it all seems so meaningless.
its like there's no point in saying anymore.
you're you, and you'll always be the same.

oh wells.. i guess its really the end then.
cause no matter how much tears i shed,
no matter how swollen my eyes get.
no matter how much heartbreak i endure.
you will still stubbornly be the same..

ps: bearbear and i will miss you..

2010-08-03T08:25:00.001-07:00

i miss you, i do..
want to get back with you..
but..
its just your actions..
i dont know anymore.

2010-08-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

when i was sick..
you didnt care.
you didnt reply after your exam.
didnt even ask how was i feeling.

you said you wanted to visit me,
now youre saying im forcing you..

when i didnt reply, you didnt care.
if by me being sick and me crying,
it doesnt mean anything to you.
then what will ever mean anything to you.

he called you baby. ?
you liked the post..
lol, what a joke..

ps: fainting spells/

2010-08-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

why..
i understand you dont like staying till 5 everyday to wait for me,'so despite you promised,
its still flexible with me..
but why isit when i only have to stay till 3-330, youre also so reluctant..
do you really not want to spend time with me. ?
youre sick. ?
well apparently im sick too, yet i have no complains.
the ony thing i want is for us to just at least spend that 2 hours together.
but you were so unwilling.
but its okay, i wont ask anymore..
i can only go around envying other couples, especially your good friend.

do you really like him more than me. ?
why isit that he has to be there whenever im not.
seems like friends are still more important towards you.
you like him alot because he can satisfy your materialism, he spoils you.
but i dont..

you activated your fb, i dont know if you would betray me..
im really so scared and insecure..
i do trust you, just that you have not assured me enough..
plus all of our quarrels..
its killing me.

ps: head hurting badly from fever and crying.

2010-07-31T02:49:00.001-07:00

blame me all you want.
in your eyes, im always wrong.

2010-07-31T02:46:00.001-07:00

pleasure..
is something you cant satisfy me in.

im selfish,
i dont like it when i cant get something that i want.

ps: i dont like staying home anymore.

2010-07-30T08:13:00.001-07:00

wtf, lan at iluma cant load audition.
im so bored and cold here yet i cant leave.

ps: im okay... (:

2010-07-28T07:28:00.001-07:00

its only when i called..
its only when i cry..

when will it be just you using your heart..

2010-07-28T06:53:00.001-07:00

you never called back..
why isit everytime i give my heart out, it comes back broken..

grandma only know how to nag and scream and shout at me..
i hate her..
i hate everyone..

im alone, no one ever understands..
i can only cry alone..

2010-07-25T09:20:00.001-07:00

when they say time heals all pain.
you know its actually a lie..

when they say its how you deal with the pain to make it hurt less.
you know that its just an excuse.

when they say memories of someone you lost but loved deeply are sweet.
you know youre just living in denial.

when they say true love exist.
you know its true, but it doesnt always turn out the way you wanted it..

ps: i want to be happier.

2010-07-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

when i broke up with her, i thought i couldnt love again.
cause i loved her, deeply.
however, you came along.
you showed me how i could heal a broken heart slowly with you loving me.
i started off with you being half-hearted.
but, with each passing day, my love for you grew..
i didnt care if you were unreasonable or a pain in the arse.
as i love you more each passing day, i took note of every single details bout you.
you were irrtable, had a bad temper and acted like a petty little girl.
i gave in, but i couldnt anymore..
i had my doubts bout your actions, thus i chose to end this.
the pain inflicted is somehow worse than what i expected..
is this really want i want, is what im doing really right. ?
i dont know.
you tried to salvage our relationship, however i reacted differently.
i didnt tolerate nor did i give in, so now its really the end.
am i really doing whats right..
cause if i am, then why is my heart hurting so badly now...

2010-07-03T11:05:00.000-07:00

so tired so so tired..
i lost you, and now he's back as my retribution.

2010-06-22T10:45:00.000-07:00

went k with yuwen today.
met baby and then jocelyn..
had fun i guess, took many pictures. !
my camera isnt spoiled. woohoo. !
but...
i cant upload it. shucks.
tsktsk.

dont feel like sleeping, afraid that i ccant wake up for school tomorrow.
rawr.!
and baby isnt back from that banana's b'day party.

ps. feel so alone.

2010-06-19T11:33:00.000-07:00

eyes and nose fucking me up again.
reminds me of how we use t complain bout it.. lol

went t watch karatekid today. <3
its fabulous. two thumbs up. !
be it action, humorous or inspiring, its all a 100%.
woohoo..

dont feel like having tuition at 11am later,
shag..

ps: im happier now.

2010-06-16T09:05:00.000-07:00

surprised at how fast things are advancing now.
you're just like a retribution.
implicating whatever hurt i've done in the past.
but its all the past now..

memories are always sweet and bitter.
isnt that just how life is. ?

22.04.10

2010-04-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR GIRLFRIEND. xoxo
rofl.
had a splendid day today with the girls.
had napfa, went orchard and walked in the rain..
its been 2 days since we broke up and im feeling peaceful.
you just left my place 10 mins ago..
you came, sit and messaged. while i was constantly using the com.
we said nothing to each other, guess i have nothing to say to you anymore.
dear asked if i love you, well... its an ans we both know.
thats why i chose to leave.
there can only be one person in thy heart.
apparently, my heart was occupied since 19 monthhs ago.
it has not been vacant since then..
but... ohh wells...
im proud to say im already starting to let go.
it doesnt hurt as much anymore.
only that i still love you deeply and im missing you alot.
but i guess these are all just habits.
now, i love you yet you hate me.
i deserved all these, for whatever things ive done in the past.
just gonna take one step at a time.
im tired of relationships, tired of falling in love and getting hurt..
tired of everything....

2010-04-10T11:19:00.000-07:00

had training today. scored many points, felt really great..
at least i had you off my mind for that moment.
went to meet nicholas and th rest for joshua's school's carnival.
thought the dropping into the water thing was really cool. ! ( people who were there would know )
bought an anklet. and a whole bunch of us bought the same design. --
me, nicholas, ahjin, ahb, claudia, gabriel, koksoon, rhys and joshua.
joshua told me bout him believing in the fact that:
IF SOMETHING BELONGED TO HIM, NO MATTER HOW FAR APART THEY WERE, IT WOULD EVENTUALLY RETURN TO YOU.
honestly i agree with him.
i gave him my most sincere advice, that if love still exists between both of them..
treasure it. dont foolishy let it go and regret..
just like what i did..
the problem actually lies with me.. the fact that i keep running away from the truth,
the fact that i know you're already gone yet 'm still stubbornly clinging onto our past.
thus hurting myself every night, crying myself to slumber every single night.
its uncanny that the slicing pain comes especially when the night falls.
when 'm all alone and i can face no one but myself.
i've got it through, letting go is th only way of loving you.
as long as you're happy with someone else, i'll be happy and i'll give you my blessings too.
i'm gonna respect your decision from now on, though it doesnt matter to you anymore.
so no matter how much i love you or miss you..
how much i miss your smile, your touch, your voice, your love, your promises, your smell, your everything. i can only bear with it.
cause if by me leaving makes you happier and less stressful, i'll be happy too.
our dreams are like the wind, it comes and it goes..
our young and foolish dreams of our future.....

2010-04-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i blog. so many things have happened then..
but feelings remain.
however, sadness surfaced..
got myself a new stead, though the heart remains where it is.
burying you deep within, making myself accept the other.

in the past, we were young, foolish and madly in love.
i was stringent towards you, unreasonable and demanding.
'm extremely sorry.. i know its too late, but sorry is th only thing i can say.
i admit i was over-possesive.
im just sorry..
its really hurting me..
i love you..

numb..

2010-01-31T17:37:00.000-08:00

its over.. its finally over.
my heart feels as though it has been injected with Anaesthetic but yet tears just keep flowing uncontrollably.
i felt betrayed by her..
telling me lies bout her and another girl..
i dont know, theres so much bout her and that girl, i dont even know how to put it across now in words.
it makes me feel as though im the third party between them now.. i finally realized why she never want to meet me and always replying my messages late.
i wished i didnt know, didnt know anything at all.. cause the truth really hurts..
And i was more determined, when on Saturday she rather spend her time with her soccer friends than treasuring time with me. She told me that when she enters JC, she might not be able to spend as much with me anymore and we not may not even meet for months. I told her its okay ( i was never such a person before, normally i would just make a big fuss over it. rolf ) .. however on saturday, when she had time and she could actually meet me for lunch after her soccer match, she rather be with them. and the reason is : a team comes and goes together. i felt like telling her that she already dont have much time with me, yet she's still doing this. unlike cherie's boyfriend, being in camp for the whole week he desperately wants to meet her on saturday, and if she dont, he'll get angry.. honestly im very envy.. she's the total opposite.
i realise that im nothing to her anymore..it really hurts. i miss her so so much, but i have to convince myself not to be soft-hearted anymore.. cause im not in her heart....sigh.. i dont know..

14.01.10

2010-01-14T06:20:00.000-08:00

me and lovely zoe. my hair looks screwed. --

lol, busy changing for work. then yuwen and yanling trying to be funny. --

so tired. ! i just came came from work. zzz haha so happy, i manage to sold a pair of shoes. ! like FINALLY. lol hmm.. today were filled with much emotions and events..
i woke up feeling depressed.. cause the night before, i sent her an extremely long and sweet sms.. however th only reply i got was: you still dont wanna change. ! i just awoke from my slumber thus i was still in a daze... sigh.. however i recovered fast. i just did the necessary replies.. told cherie bout her reply and cherie just scolded her a jerk.. saying i was so sweet yet she doesnt appreciate me.. saying i deserve better.. sigh..blahhblahhblahh... got ready for school and stuff. she replied, i replied.. but not receiving any replies anymore.. i tried callung her when school was about to end.. no ans.. i concluded that she was ignoring me. heck. ! i dont know why.. sighs.. ohh wells. so i took a bus with yuwen and yanling to orchard to check on her. ! xoxo. haha. and guess what, she was goddamn working and she didnt tell me. ! angry...... however things between were solved.. she told me that she was gonna quit soon and promised+ swear she didnt have anything to do with that bloody bitch and that she still loves me like before.. however, she needs time to cool down and revert back to her normal self.. ( even though i think it wont really be her normal self cause i believed that she has changed.. not that tolerant and sweet girl i use to know anymore.) i dont know.. i just i got soft-hearted again and i just gave in... this morning itself, i already to let her go... but.....aye i dont know.. we'll see how it goes.. sigh... so tired now.. how i wish there's someone to hug tight me after a long day and just smile and tell me tomorrow's gonna be better.. guess it'll never happen if im with her... sigh.. i did so many changes for her, lower my expectations.. i hope she really understand what im going through...

PS: the urge is getting stronger.

2010-01-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

我想我并不聰明

我沒有你的機靈

在愛情變質之前我沒反應

沒察覺你的表情

你知道我不聰明

所以才選擇放棄

放棄去猜你每一個反應

去猜你是否變心

放棄你放棄愛情

放棄了所有權利

連自己都知道這不公平

放棄你放棄自己

放棄了愛的權利

放棄你等於放棄我自己

你知道我不聰明

所以我選擇放棄

放棄去猜該如何留住你

放棄了所有回憶

放棄你放棄愛情

放棄了所有權利

連自己都知道這不公平

放棄你放棄自己

放棄了愛的權利

放棄你等於放棄我自己

放棄你放棄愛情

放棄了所有權利

連自己都知道這不公平

放棄你放棄自己

放棄了愛的權利

放棄你等於放棄我自己

放棄你等於放棄我自己

♥ i love you.

13.01.10.

2010-01-13T06:27:00.000-08:00

okay.. now im gonna blog bout today first.. sigh... not exactly today.. but im gonna say what happened..
she... whacked me for the first time.. i had injuries all around.. th next day i went to school, i had a bandage around my neck..never did i expect she would ever lay a single finger on me.. but she did...and i was so hurt, my heart feels so numb now..we quarrelled, i threaten to take my life, but what.. she just talked on th phone with pris.. such a whore.. and she actually told me this: dont do it. and stop wasting my time, i still needa work.. i didnt have th courage, but if i did i think i would have jumped..and yet, th only thing she told me was not to waste her time cause she needed work.. i went crazy, literally.. i went to her house, crying, i hit her back and her head, strangled her hard, heartbroken..practically losing my mind.. and thats when it all started.. she hit me, wanted to punch me.. strangle me and kicked me in the stomach and back.. i was crying.. profusely.. it felt so painful.. not the injuries.. but the heart.. like it was bleeding.. i kept crying.. she cooled down, changed my clothes and urge me to get outta th house with her cause she needed to work.. i forgave her..i was to soft-hearted i know.. but i dont know why..i just forgave her....
FRIDAY... she wanted to go ngee ann poly th next day for registration.. told me after filling up a form, she would be done and could meet me.. that it wouldnt be long..i found it strange.. why didnt she ask me along. ? so i asked if i could go.. she said yes, but another girl was going.. i lose it.. i said: no wonder you didnt ask me along cause you are going with another girl. ! she scolded me for being unreasonable... we quarrelled...
SATURDAY... she didnt even ask me to go with her th next day..i got angry, i said: forget it, i dont wanna go. enjoy your time with tht girl. ! on normal circumstances, she would ask me to go and apologised.. however.. she got angry with me, scolded me again.. i needed a breather, so i wanted to go to esplanade..thinking maybe she would try to hurry and meet me after to make me happier. ( usually thats what always happens) she DID NOT REPLY MY SMS FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR.. i was devastated.. my mum told me: what for be so sad.. i doubt she even cares whether ornot youre crying..she must be having so much fun with her friends.. i didnt believe.. so when i got on a bus, i called her and kept quiet.. when she picked up, the first thing i heard was " JOEY. !!! (giggles) and then she laugh.. i heard a bitch's voice... and she was laughing happily.. i hung up.. tears cascaded down my cheeks.. i couldnt take it.. how could she do this to me.. the next messaage i got was: you called right, i cant meet you anymore.... i dont know what to do, i felt so lost...so i sent her a message: lets just end this.. im here heartbroken and crying, and you. ? instead of hurrying up to meet me, youre enjoying time with your friends.! i called cherie- no ans.. called meow- she was too far to meet me.. i called yuwen, and she said she could meet me.. we went vivo.. i told her everything that happened.. she urged me to break with her.. i dont know.. then i recieved a message from her: you want break isit, fine. ! dont have to go around telling everyone we quarrelled, its not very glamorous. i was confused, i only told yuwen but yuwen didnt even contact her.. i didnt reply.. then she said: eh, you serious uh. ? and i didnt reply again... before she went to work, she sent me an sms saying: she didnt ask me along cause she ASSUMED i would not be interested cause my o's werent even over. and that she find that there wasnt a point to meet me since i was unhappy..and her friend called her cause she was doing some hands on thing, and it was inappropriate to ans the phone... i found it ridiculous.. she knows, as long with her i wouldnt mind following and for the fact tht she told me SHE WAS ONLY GONNA FILL UP A FORM AND ITS DONE. now shes telling me that shes trying out the courses. -- and i said, so when im angry you wouldnt even give a damn. ?.. and we argued for almost the whole time till now...
my head hurts writing this... sigh..
MONDAY... th day when o level results are released.. congrats to her cause she got a very good score... we met, so i was soft hearted to forgive her again..we went for lunch and blahhblahh.. then it was about time for me to work, so i asked her to check the time.. she told me it was inconvenient for her to take, asked me to check myself. i told her: mines in the bag, yours is in your pocket. cant you juat take it out. ? so she took it out to check the time... she tried to avoid the phonr screen from me.. i was getting suspicious so i tried to grab the phoone from her. : eh theres a message uuh. she suddenly said.. i stared at her.. i saw the name- cherie.. (not my goodfriend, cherie) i asked her who was it, she said it was a girl working at her place, asking if she was working the next day. but th message i saw was that BITCH telling her that she was on her way to tampines..i dont understand why must she lie to me...anyway, i went to work.. after work, i asked her: i thought you said your werent close to any girls at your workplace. ? and now you even have their num. ?! she said that that girl took her num from her manager and she messaged her cause we were quarrelling and she needed to faxie..ohh gosh.. i was wtf..? i called cherie and cried all the way home.. she actually cheated on me behing my back.. something that i never expected she would do... i talked to her when i reached home.. i admit, i was going insane.. i cried and cried.. and she got more and more angry. she said i was irrtating cause i kept cryint and everyone would think shes a jerk cause of me.. she blamed me for everything..blamed me for her cheating on me, blamed me for her treating me like shit.. cause she said i twotime her. which i never did. ! holding georginas hand was only cause when i was in hospital, i needed comfort, and shes actually jealous and called me a slut for messaging a sec 1 girl. ?! just because i didnt tell the girl bout my status and she thinks i like her brother.. i got called a slut for tht.. idk.. she keeps blaming me for treating her bad and stuffs..i dont know whats gotten into her.. she was digging up the past when she told me to forget bout what she did in the past. ! then she said that we should break... she ignored my calls, my smses... she IGNORED ME. something she NEVER did... the next day... she replied, i said i'll meet her... she keeps rejecting.. said that she needs to work and stuffs.. she doesnt want to see me at all... i was heartbroken.. then she said, if i meet her, she would never want to see me again. then she said she didnt want to message me anymore....during fn, i made her a cake.. after school, i made my way to her workplace...i saw a girl standing beside her.. i dont know if shes tht bitch. but i totally ignored her.. i gave her the cake, she just plainly stared at me... tht cold stare pierced through my heart like a dagger....... i walked away.... crying.... heartbroken and lost... when i reached home, no one was home.. i had all th time to myself.. i sent her a message: i'll give you time to cool down and think bout us.. by friday, if you dont message me, then i'll take it that its over.. if you message me, means you want to continue being with me.. but i will not allow you to cheat on me.. i can give in to you and shut up if you want me to, but i will tolerate if you cheat on me... at 135, i recieved a message saying: i will definitely message you,i got that feel.. she ended work at 11.. but why did she only message me at 135. ? i dont know.. neither did i ask... so i didnt message her today for the whole day, neither did she sms me.. i miss her.. i was afraid that when i didnt message her, she would message that SHAMELESS WHORE, and she would change her mind bout messaging me.. so i sms shanice.. she was very nice to comfort me and even wanted to accompany me to find tht whore.. but i said wait till i get an ans from her... that SHOULD summarise all.. i dont know..i feel tht i cant type anymore...my emotions are killing me now...im really so lost.... shanice ask me to end this, cause she abused me... but its easier said then done...i wonder if shes happy without me this few days.. or is she suffering like me. ? but i have the feeling that she is actually enjoying her time without me... i dont know why.... but i cant help but think this way..... its really so painful.. i never felt like this before.. all my previous relationships, i never had problem letting go... but i dont know whats wrong with me.... i really dont know....

im back..

2010-01-13T05:08:00.001-08:00

i have not blog for a goddam long time.. and now i've decided that i shall blog again.
reason being, even though i have people to talk to.. but i feel that i need some time for myself. this will be a new and taxing year due to the o levels thats only 5.5 months away. and ever since i've moved back to my dad's place, i feel that i've lost all my time for myself.. however stressful i am, even though its a new year but im already experiencing problems.
there's so much to say.. i don't even know where i should start from..
first being first, lets start off happy..
10 of jan was my birthday. also the day when i had a huge arguement with her.. sigh..
we didnt meet for that particular day.. thus i was out with yuwen, kenneth and yanling.. cherie couldnt make it cause she wasnt allowed out on a sunday. i met yuwen and kenneth at tanahmerah then we headed to Ion. initially we were suppose t have lunch with yanling. however, her mum seems to be giving her problems therefore we went ahead with lunch. we decided to have GoGo curry. it was my virgin time trying it.. we got a second largest and damn. ! it was huge. ! me, yuwen and kenneth had to share. ;x so full. ! when i saw the biggest plate, i had a shock of my life. i was thinking: who could ever finish that man. haha, it was BIG like real huge. four guys were eating it and they seem bloated. .-.
hmm.. after that, we walked around.. like real boring. .-. the we went into Apple store. and guess what, yuwne and kenneth got so intrigued with th laptop, they started using free internet access there. -- lol, like everyone was staring at them. funny. ! they are th loves man i tell you. kenneth enlarged yuwen's unglam pic on th big screen. ! haha. ! he got scolded. lol... then we went kiki.k. and guess what, yanling appeared with a small birthday cake. and it was hellokitty. ! xoxo. ! lol loves man. !!! i told her that.. and what she replied me was: not to tell ehr anything, cause she didnt want to have anything to do with me anymore..that really felt as though i've been stabbed in the heart..sigh.. anyway, they sang me a birthday song.. then we went shopping at fareast.. yanling bought a shirt.. lol.. well thats bout it.. that was how i spent my birhday.. sigh... but im really grateful yanling they all were still there for me...

think i put on alot of weight. --

2009-10-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

what am i to everyone. ?
am i just a girl that is utterly invisible to everyone and everything... even my love ones.?
im so tired and sick of this relationship.
what does she understand.? nothing.. nothing at all.
i thought maybe a girl would understand my plight better, but im wrong.
they are like guys, they only think of themselves, take their partners for granted and never have the patience to know what a girl really wants.
i really feel so lonely, i need someone, just one person is enough.. as long as tht person understands me, anyone would do.
i dont know who to confide in, i feel so trapped in my own world. with no one at all, neither do i want to let anyone in anymore....

2009-10-25T05:44:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to trust or do anymore..
i think im just living my life so meaningless each day..
can someone just pull me out of this misery ... please..

silence.

2009-10-05T05:19:00.000-07:00

i have been hurt...
been hurt upteen times.
i tried to be understanding and accept the fact, but i cant..
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my friends said i look so tired and haggard,
but i cant do anything either.
theres so much happening around me.
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she is not understanding at all..
she doesnt know me, im so sick and tired of all the arguements.
should this really be the end.?
maybe both of us would be happier. ?
even though i have to be alone and sad again, i wouldnt mind if this end would stop everything..
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silence is the only thing i can afford to do now,
at least i feel a little peace within me.
i need an escape route to somewhere filled with peace and tranquility.
even just for one day, its enough..
im really going insane, can someone please help me, i cant take it anymore.....

...

2009-09-25T11:23:00.000-07:00

imma tired.. .-. was my last day at fortunecuisine..
haha, i found a new job. its at ion.
hmm.. xinpei introduced me her modelling company, was taking pictures today. the full body shots came out okay however the close-ups were screwwd.
.......
i dont know why.. guess its cause im not use to someone else taking my picture.. grr..
joey kept making fun of me saying its my face issue.
i was already so depressed yet she just had to add on to it. i guess she can never realise whatever im feeling or thinking inside. .-.
thus, we arranged another day to take the pictures, so i can quickly send in my interview pictures. i really hope i get it though. .-.
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tomorrow's gonna be another long day. im gonna have my new job training at 11am. !!! xinpeis' coming along. guess she's interested in the job too. hmm.. hopefully we could work on my close up pictures.
and to add on, im gonna have dinner at fortune cusine. haha. !
anyway, this blogs' and my blogshops's skin was done by joey.
however she didnt do it right the first time, so i got real mad.. .-.
sorry love, i didnt mean it.
we're both tired.
sigh.. if only she understands more on how i feel.
her jokes today about the pictures really pissed me off and we had an arguement. plus... i injured my hand. zzz
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xinpei took one natural shot of me today,
she said i looked real troubled.
hmm.. seems like im thinking too much.
sometimes she still appears in my mind, seems like an ink stain that can never be removed from a shirt.
i still miss our friendship and times together, but its all the end now.i've already given up, those times we had would be sweet memories in my heart.
my heart only consists of my one and only baby.
so tired, im drifting into a world of my own again.......

arrghh. !

2009-09-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

im so tired. .-. zzz
sorry for not blogging, was working like abcdefg.
desperately in need of money. !
............................

anyway.............
haha, i took off yesterday at least, then kinda went shopping with my mum.. hmm..my 24 bucks....
its heartening. .-.
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went to this very interesting shop located at stamfords place, its called fre3b.
its interesting in a way that its unlike other shops where you choose your products, pay and leave happily. (:
haha,
its actually like you join their membership at a net price of 28 bucks,get their goodybag. (:
afterthat, go to a particular website, do their survey..

accumulate points and every 16 points accumulated, TADA. ! you get to enter the shop and pick 6 products.! and guess what, their absoutely free. ! (:
haha, interesting right. however their items are actually samples, so they come in small quantity.
so if you like the item, you can actually purchase it at the specific stalls itself. its kinda like free sampling.
haha, but its also good, at least you get to try the productsbeforehand so you can actually decide whether or not you would want to purchase it...
this are the items i took.............

haha, i still find it so amusing.
after that, my mum and i went to watsons, and i saw tampons. !
haha, i got kinda curious and started enquiring about it, and in the end, i got a small box myself to try it out.
lolol, here it is....

it might feel weird at first try, but after you insert it, you really wont be able to feel anything anymore.!
its such a miracle, and its also way way way convenient compared to wearing a pad.!
haha, so try. (:

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anyway, ive got new products for you guys. ! enjoy. (:
loves

korean dramas.

2009-09-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

im like spamming korean dramas now.its kinda stupid though..
the weather in singapore is really incorrigible. .-. you have just stepped out from a cool and refreshing bath and the next moment, you start perspiring uncontrollably like some sumo-wrestle. .-.
arrghh..
this is really making me reconsider if i should continue keeping long hair or should i just snip it off. --
ohh, speaking about long hairs, it just reminded me of a blog i just saw..
and thats dawnyang's blog.
not that im prejudiced or something, but i still prefer xiaxue compared to dawn.
xiaxue seems more realistic compared to dawn and not as bitchy.(no offence)
lol, but im in no position to comment on anyone of them, its just my opinions..
im really wondering whats into people's minds these days..
i can be so innocent and not talk to them at all, yet the next thing i getis hearing from others that they dislike me or whatsoever.
excuse me. i've done nothing to you people.
i admit i was a bitch last time, but that doesnt mean you have to condemn me now.
especially if you don't even know me at all.
you just assume im still the same and start spreading rumors about me that arent true. WTF. ?
humans arent born to be perfect, and im supposed to please all of you. ?
we practise freedom of speech, so i cant restrict what you say to others about me,
but if you still have the consciousness, please do not spread something that isnt true.
i recieve messages of accusation stating that i badmouth people.
im just conveying what you people said.? and when we tried you clarify things, you repeated what i told the other party, so thats badmouth. ? honestly, in my entire life, i never heard of such things.
and you can even ask those who trust me not to trust me and scold that innocent fella who believes me illogical. --
AND after that twist your words and say i didnt badmouth you.
HELLOOOOO. ~~~ are you sure youre in the right mind. ? or do you just detest me so much like all those who doesnt know me at all but the only thing they want to do is accuse me. zz
GET A LIFE.
i sent you a message after that explaining myself and wanting back a friendship and what i get.?
a reply that consists of only one syllabus : K.
omg.. im like completely speechless, since this friendship is nothing to you, its nothing to me too..
imma quiet person who doesnt agitate people anymore, unless you step on my tail, thats another story..
so i dont see why im getting all these.
i don flare at you people for no goddam reason anymore, and im not given a second chance to turn over a new leaf. ?
what about those who's been to prison, does that mean they are guity for life. ? that they have to carry their mistakes around and not be forgiven. ?
i really dont know whats wrong with people these days.
they are so light ears, and its so disappointing..
cause they can even betray you despite you're their childhood friend and choose to believe someone they barely know for less than a year.
its so heartening..
i can only ignore these people cause i believe if youre really my friend, you would take the time to know me from within and vice versa.
and not to post inhumane and untrue comments about me.
im still looking for that friend. that true friend..
hope those out there who is also looking the best of luck . :)
loves. !

FATIGUE..

2009-09-05T10:59:00.000-07:00

sorry for not blogging like two days.. i was back from work late, thus th reason for my late post now..
so tired.. it was so busy at the restaurant today..
grr met manny rude customers.
cant believe how can singaporeans actually be so rude these days.
anyway we had dance practise before worktoday at vivo.
auditions are on monday, hope we get in though.. im kinda anxious, afraid that i would screw it up. .-.
after dance practise, went to eat steamboat.. lol, it was so alluring. haha.
i cant seem to find an alternative to install themes into my phone. when i transfer it to my memory card, th phone isnt able to install it..
and when i connect the phone to th laptop, i cant find th folder which contains the phones original theme.. sigh.. confusing right..lol, if anymore knows..
PLEASE PLEASE teach me. :)
lol, think im gonna get sick soon. .-. im like sneezing and coughing plus.. my back is aching from todays work. >< grr..
lol, think its best to keep one occupied so they wouldnt think of unpleasent memories.. haha
omg luhhs.. i did REAL BADDD for my progress report this month. sigh..i have totally no motivation to study at all..
but i guess im left with no choice..i dont wish to retain.. thats all for today.. im dead baet tired. ! haha.
will write soon, loves.

Elated. !

2009-09-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

so happy happy happy. !! lol, i got a new phone. ;D
its E71.

lol, i got the white one too. Exact same as this.

Its keypads are very nice to type and also its very slick.

heh, my next target would be the Nikon camera.

after that i will be FREEEEEEE. !! ;D

i can do as much shopping i like after that.

heh.

and im like really into blog shopping now, i find it affordable and the things are also nice. lol

im gonnna GLAM up my phone, stay tuned for more. ^^

happy saving. (: